stress... part 2

really really stressed
cos my studying is on SLOW progress....
everyone's practically half way there...
Im still dwelling on some chapters...
I thought I could face it positively, without worries and so...
who knew.. when I was lonely, I'd go insane and started going emo T3T
hearing friends sleeping at 1am...
I really want to do that too...
but I cant... cos I sleep too much!
I thought I was happy and had the ability to brave the exams...
but when Im in school, in front of my parents... that bravery is nothing but a mask...
a hoax I would say!
haiz... what to do? what to say?
really dont want to drop classes, cos all my friends are in the first...
if I drop... I'd be lonely... cos Im weird... and unsocial...
it took me practically three years to talk to EVERYONE in my class

I hope I will do well, pass everything at least...
not to get my hopes too high...
everyone has high hopes on me...
thinking I'll pass with flying colours again...
but they're wrong, I barely prepared...
it stresses me even more if they say so...
they dont know I feel...

as long as I do well, everyone will be happy...
teachers, friends and especially my family...
I just dont want to disappoint them...
it breaks me to see my family sad....

I just want to pass everything pls!!!
and stay in my class where we laugh and play together...
everyone's practically family to me now...
I dont want to leave them TAT

and now it's time for me to study!
sorry for making u read this tedious crap
zomg... I've flooded my room... just wanted to pour my heart out...
off I go now! praying I would make it through T3T
wish me all the best
and 1 month of insomniac....
EYEBAGS!!!!

doodle scraps!

these are some sketches that I did during my headmistress's retiring ceremony!
this was done like 352389478932 years ago!

this is one of my german shepards!
sam sam XD
he was named after the sam in I AM LEGEND which will smith starred in!
the dog was so loyal T3T


that's my cat! she's sleeping on my chair!!!!
my bro took the photo cos she looks like she's diving XD

just wanted to post some pictures...
Im dying of stress now! cos school just announced that exams would be on 18th of October till 2nd of November!!! ZOMGWTHBBQMYEYESAREGONNAGOBLIND!!!!!!!!
at first, the whole gombak district was having exams on 25th! and for some miraculous reason, it was brought front T3T WTH!
I even scheduled everything nicely! T3T
I have to reschedule!!! hope I dont drop classes....
and tadaaa... some old fart

tadaa!!!! it ish H20

as I promised! I finally stalled study time... I MEAN finished H2O
I decided to call her mizu chan! which is water in japanese :D　
ミズちゃん!

mizu-chan (H2O)
she's cheerful cute girl ^^
and um.. her hair ish green, despite being water.... cos the pH indicator states that water has pH level of 7... which is green on the indicator... (curse my cacat brain )
she loves both H+ and OH- very much :3
plus, she loves sweets and desserts
and also OH-'s rubber ducky towel.... XD
.....more info to come.......

anyhow, wanted to share this crappy sketch! :D
did this on literature notes.. cough cough*
as you can see! it's hydroxide... darn u tall dude =3=
hydrogen and mizu chan :3
cookies to those who knows the short story :D


and now onto studying =3=
ASDFDSJLKJKJDAJL!!!!!!
exams are murderous...

chemistry anime

rofl, I've been stuck in chemistry thanks to molarity...
and I drew hydrogen, hydroxide and water...cos they have relationship in ionisation XDXD
and they cheer up my studying sessions =w=

and tadaa... I present u hydrogen and hydroxide first :D


hydrogen (H+)
kinda grumpy, but is nice and caring
chibi sized ( rofl pH scale, the less the pH... the more acidic XD )
loves the colour red
cares alot about water :3



hydroxide (OH-)
has beautiful hair ;//A//;
loves blue
kind and open minded
loves his showers and rubber ducky towel... ROFL WTH
the shower idea was from the idea of alkalis being soapy...
get it?? soapy = shower
and tall of course! ( more pH, the more alkaline )

but the thing is they love water very much
and her, I will post later.....

have to study now :D
sejarah awaits.... Im thinking of drawing the whole periodic table >:3
My friend came up with the idea that sodium and potassium should be athletes XD

this is an awesome song XD

wedding dress by taeyang
a member of BIG BANG!!!
and me loves BIG BANG alot XDXD
hope u guys love it! a lovely and sad song T3T

going insane

OMG... yesterday, I had one of my stress driven weird dreams... =A=
due to the fact Im stressed over chemistry and physics... I had this ridiculous dream.. and I barely slept @A@
there was this floating nugget called physics... it was round and dark! it was supposed to be a group homework... but after I submitted to the teacher, I forgot to add a chemistry god knows what formula that will make it glow =A=lll knocks self to a wall....
seriously... what the hell kind of dream is this... and there was this stupid chicken outside my house ( I have chickens ) who crowed and crowed and crowed... he was like a detonator... whenever I heard him go CROWWWHOWW...
I would worry about the floating nugget =n=.... and I ended up rolling up and down.... every five minutes when I finally want to have some shut eye... (curse u chicken)
when I really could sleep... my mum came and turned on the lights to burn my eyes....e___e

the worst thing was... it didnt crow when I was AWAKE!!!
JFKDJFKLAJALJQWIJALKDAOCJEOWM!!!!!!

and today at school... me and rambo-tard recalled that how fair our class's chinese guys were... then we suddenly thought if they had leg hair on those smooth fair legs..... and when I went to take a peek during tuition.. I WAS SHOCKED...
Im a girl and I have manry, musculine legs compared to theirs... T3T
theirs were like long and slim and fair and SMOOTH!!!! not a single strand of hair sprout >:(

that's all for today
and now, I shall go back to studying!!!
signing out XD

Lotte Koala's March

today, I went to my mum's shop to end my last day of raya holidays T3T
she asked me to go to watson to help her get some stuff.. I ended up going to guardian, and when I paid the money for a bag of cotton and lotte koala's march... it's then that I remembered that I was supposed to go... and WTH it was just across the road T3T

but back to the story! lotte koala's march is the cutest biscuit I've ever seen XD
and cheap too :D for some reason the price tag stated it was RM3.85, but the receipt just showed RM1.78 XD
the biscuit itself was crunchy and thin.. and the chocolate was AWESOME!!! the only thing was that it was hard and not all liquidish... and the koalas printed were so cute XDXDXD
they've got ninja koalas, korean koalas and more more koalas!!!!!!

aren't they adorable!!!!!! look at the biscuits!!!! perfectly printed koalas ;//v//;

コアラのマーチ！！！！大好き！！！ラブラブ　＜３３３

facing exam stress ;A;

exams are just a month away... and I've been doing nothing but play and sleep all day T3T
seriously regret it, but what is there to do? I had ample of time to prepare but I decided to let it flow by, and now... I'm cramming my brain away, with all the hell long names TT3TT
and for some reason, I'm really bored studying at home, it's like a weird feeling, and I always anticipate for my parents to return home from work.. to see them would make me utmost happy and forget all the stress that I'm now facing....
for some reason, I study like hell so that I can score well... that's not really the problem..
I do it not only for myself, but also to make my family and people around me proud... although they always say that it's just the best to do my best, but sometimes, I have a faint feeling that tells me that they'd be quite disappointed with horrible scores TTnTT
so, to make the people around me happy.. I study @n@

I used to be really emo last year thanks to exams, it was because during form 1 (13 years old), I never studied for my year end exams... this was because I was over confident since both previous exams were easy... I ended up crying all day and night just to finish studies for exams... I slept at almost 3am because I had insomnia and weird dreams about exams... seriously, who dreams of a rock called GEO and a rock called HISTORY fighting together =___=
I'd wake up in a shock every night during exam week and study like a freak until 3 or 4 in the morning..... ZOMWTFBBQ!
however, I'm a lot better now after I'd taken the PMR exams last year.. it was the main cause I went emo and crazy for the past three years to prepare for it... after it, I watched loads of TV and drew cause I was as free as a bird... ^^
so, that incident left me a deep fear within myself.... I'd always go nuts when exams arrived... fearing that I'd face the same problem like I did 3 years ago... now, it's the year end exams again and I hope I wont drop classes.... and disappoint my parents and fellow friends plus teachers...

now that I got that over with, hope I can feel better! I needed a place for me to pour my heart out~ and I still sleep like a pig >3>
continues with history studies... crap T3T CIAO

Merdeka celebration!

today, my school held a merdeka celebration.. a bit late but really fun!!!!
sang like psychos with my friends and danced around :D
and my throat hurt =3=
the form 6 students even made a drama just for us.. ROFL! it was hilarious!! all british police do is wear shades and japanese just go, " WATASHI WA ARRRRGGGHHHH"
seriously funny XD

this patriotic song was awesome!!! satu malaysia XD
the first patriotic which sounds like pop :D seriously, lim kok wing has music students with great potential!!! >:O

nice isnt it??? they should make this the official song!!! it's so beautiful!!!! TTuTT

and here are some hilarious videos me and rambo-tard did after the merdeka celebration at school XD ROFL!! very embarrassing indeed :D



and this is for all u muslims all around the world XD
selamat hari raya people!!!!!